[[ FRAGILE 4 ]]

                This uneasy feeling in my gut that probably falls under the premises of guilt made me spend an entire afternoon writing this letter. What are the right words to say when what we want to say feels wrong? How are we supposed to break hearts graciously? How do we say painful words in the sweetest way? Here goes the letter…

                Dear Dear,

                I should say this personally but my cowardice got the best of me. I may stutter and say the wrong words then. Saying the right words in the right way may not even matter now but I believe that I have to do this in the best possible way I could.

                What I want to say is…

                that we can’t be together.

                Remember those days when we were getting to know each other? We were happy. I was happy. Because somebody found me, somebody loved me. You did your best to put back together what was once broken.

                A week ago, I found out about a girl HE is very fond of. That’s when I knew that we can’t be together because I wanted to be that girl HE has his eye on. I guess I still love him. Because it still hurts. Because I still daydream of the day we’ll meet again. Because my passwords are still based on his name. Because he makes me feel so lonely and being with you doesn’t make a difference. I still feel lonely.

                I am sorry. Maybe it’s time to stop wooing me. I don’t deserve your love. I wanted to believe that I’ll learn how to love you, but it never happened. I can’t let our story drag for long when I know we’ll just end up hurting each other. You are a great guy, when the right girl comes along, you’ll see that she’ll love you more than I could.

                I am hoping that you’ll understand, because you know what it’s like to love someone. It doesn’t matter if they love us back, as long as we feel that pain of wanting them that makes life sweeter. It doesn’t matter if we get wasted crying over them at night when we wake up in the morning inspired to make their dreams come true for them. We are fragile yet strong, wise yet foolish, sensitive but numb, impatient but perseverant, needy but generous, empty but complete.

                Surely hesitant,

                You-know-who

(Need I remind you again that this is but a fiction? :D )