I was pacing back and forth in my bedroom glancing every minute at my cellphone. I would lie in bed, toss and turn, sit, and then pace around like a palace guard on duty. The cellphone beeped, my heart jumped along with my feet as I grabbed the poor thing to see who sent me a message. Was it from him?
"Oh hi. U may come 1st week of july so long as u are fine. Do continue taking ur meds until i see u."
It's from my doctor. Damn! Dammit!
I turned on my netbook, browsed my media files. I played random music and watched random videos. But I couldn't keep my eyes from not checking the damn cellphone. I missed you. I missed your call. I missed your voice. I missed how we would laugh at every little thing. I missed you. I really did miss you.
Today...
My cellphone lies untouched on top of my cabinet. It's battery is drained and I did not load it. I couldn't care less if someone calls or texts. Whoever does, I simply do not care at this moment. Because I am content today. I'm not thirsting for a drink, craving for a comfort food, and not even really missing you.
Maybe because someone else sent me flowers yesterday.
Someone else makes me feel beautiful,
Handles my fragile heart with care.
wow ha may suitor kana pala ngayon.
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